==originally published Jan 2015==
I stand accused in the court of my conscience. The crime? Social profiling dishonorable motive. The scene of the crime? My favorite little greasy spoon diner, of course. The particulars of the accusation? Two kids, out of the bar early looking for a bite to eat before going on to what ever was to become of their evening, of their obviously evolving relationship, and the assumptions and assignments their conversation (carrying clearly across the quiet of a slow to dead point in the evening’s traffic) inspired in yours truly.
I stand accused in the court of my conscience. The crime? Social profiling dishonorable motive. The scene of the crime? My favorite little greasy spoon diner, of course. The particulars of the accusation? Two kids, out of the bar early looking for a bite to eat before going on to what ever was to become of their evening, of their obviously evolving relationship, and the assumptions and assignments their conversation (carrying clearly across the quiet of a slow to dead point in the evening’s traffic) inspired in yours truly.
Both kids were college
students of course. The lad, by his
words, on the edge of graduating with a technical degree of some sort in
aeronautics, he spoke of taking a job as a ferry pilot taking aircraft in for maintenance
work. The lass really didn’t reveal her
course of study, of her all I have is observation.
They spoke quite formally,
really, very polite exchanges of well crafted sentences dealing with events
relating to their lives on campus, nothing out of the ordinary at all. In point of fact it was the very structure of
their conversation attracted my attention to them, otherwise I’d have paid them
little mind, left my assessment at a first impression: just a couple who’d
found each other early in the evening and agreed to adjourn for more private
recreations, the only point of interest a slightly voyeuristic chuckle at the
difference in their statures: he rather tall, slender, refined in the manner of
Scandinavian nobility with exceptionally long fingers, she an attractive and very
petite lass of oriental heritage, my first thought concerning them was actually
a quite benign hope they’d find a bit of genuine delight in each other as
described in David Bowie’s song “China Girl.” She seemed the sort of woman to fit the
devotion expressed in the song, the kind where you just know if she takes it
into her head to take a boy’s mind off his worries for an evening she knows exactly
how to go about such a mission of mercy.
If I’d left it there I’d
not be where I am, standing in the dock of my own thoughts, but I didn’t. As their conversation continued on phrase
after phrase popped flags from the typical Republican political spiels, the
unmistakable markers of the conservative elite, and it was the lad offering
them. The lass would echo each he
offered almost verbatim several exchanges deeper into the conversation, but
never offered one in her own right. She
said several things quite in keeping with them, but never in the exact wording
of the propaganda masters. It got so
dense I was entertaining the idea what I witnessed was a lad determined to rise
through the political ranks of the Young Republicans using the lass as an
audience to practice for the campaign trail.
If that was his intent I’d give him good marks, he had them well
memorized, played them at appropriate points.
And yet, there was no
evidence to indicate the lad was anything but sincere in his statements. Ample evidence to indicate he was more than a
bit frightened of his companion’s well refined sexuality (I’m not sure he was
even aware that he was humming, in a quite pleasant voice, what I think were
church hymns every time the conversation would cross the man-woman interface,
any time she’d try and dial on even a bit of feminine allure as a complement),
but nothing to indicate he was anything but sincere in his goals and ambitions,
his values and his ethics.
It is an impeachment of my
objectivity as a pragmatic idealist that I’ve allowed the dishonorable methods
and motives of the hypocritical and essentially traitorous Bain-AIG-Halliburton-Enron camp to become the default assumption of motive
where a traditional-conservative individual
is concerned.
Enter the above as exhibit
A in the prosecutions case: gross cynicism inspired by what was, at one time, the American dream
being expressed in a social setting.
Not an acceptable thing,
but still, where it might have gotten me noticed by the dream police it
wouldn’t have been likely to have gotten me indicted. What got me indicted was my after the fact
speculations concerning the lass.
Every university is host
and home to some number of them, the women who attend with an mrs degree her
prime and quite undeclared major. She studies hoping she’ll never need to earn
her living with what she’s learned. Such women are not as common now as they
once were, but they still exist in sufficient numbers to maintain the
stereotype as an active subset of current society. The stereotype is, of course, most often applicable
to women where the conventions of her culture specify she is to dedicate her
life to being homemaker and mother, her livelihood provided by her mate, her education
a resource to enhance and enrich the lives of her children.
Such is an honorable intent,
no rational fault to be found with it, certainly not enough fault to justify
the venom directed at those who choose such a life by the bitter and jaded-jealous
elements of the liberal world who attack the very concept as their morning litany. Still though, it is true that such women really
are predators after a fashion, hunting as they do for a man who truly embraces and
internalizes the same code and convention to be her mate; and, it is equally
true that such women (and men) are commonly the more if not most conservative
of people.
It was reflecting on my
speculations concerning the lass in question that brought about the indictment
of conscience. If it should please the
court then enter into evidence what follows as prosecution exhibit B.
The corrosion and erosion of
the American ethic has, over say the last seventy five years, produced a subset
of peoples who to casual observation in the short run will present the same
demeanor as the family oriented conservative people mentioned above. They will use all the same rhetoric, present
themselves in the same manners and yet in objective fact carry agendas anything
but family oriented, they who are the bread and butter mainstays of the industries
of divorce, they who made necessary the instrument of a prenuptial agreement.
These people are some of
the most absolutely predatory of individuals to be found, and they like their
opposites hunting the liberal worlds of the alternate lifestyles are in fact sexual predators.
Since the instinct to procreation is universal it should be no great surprise
that every facet of society will be home to a subset of predators who base
their attack on that segment of society's unique deformities of this most
primal of instincts, nor should it be a surprise these predators will adopt the
closest approximation possible to the appearance of wholesomeness within any
given social environment.
In my world the apogee of
such predators are assumed (perhaps justly, perhaps not) to be most commonly
found on campus living in the Greek houses, the campus’ self appointed elite, members
of a fraternity or sorority. As a matter
of course quite a number of derogatory names have been devised to describe such
individuals*, and equally of course those innocent of such ignoble motives are
often victims of the disdain intended for those not so innocent, an ongoing
case of unjustified guilt by accidental association.
That’s what I did to the
lass in question, allowed that assumption to take the stage before any other,
and that was wrong of me. She’ll never
know it, but I do. My first thought, in
spite of all evidence to the contrary, was to try and assign her a *Sorostitute,
the most vile of predators working the conservative side of the equation. I was actually arguing, in my thoughts, the
idea that she was simply a higher class call girl entertaining a client as the
more positive of the possibilities, a most distinct secret injustice inflicted
upon a perfect stranger.
Like I said earlier, she
really was a fine and foxy creature, clearly intelligent, attractive, sensual
and seductive. Equally the evidence of
her behavior towards a lad obviously uncomfortable, frightened, of her unabashed
femininity showed her to be a rather gentle creature really, she could have
hammered him into stuttering silence at many points, but she didn’t. In spite of all evidence to the contrary my
conclusion was she had herself a twenty pound man hooked on five pound test,
and with total sarcastic cynicism for my attitude I was wondering if she’d play
him out and reel him in, or if he’d manage to break free and flee before being
harvested.
Mea culpa, guilty as
charged. The negative assumptions had
control of my thoughts from so many different directions as to almost close
away the rational, the real and leave me a peripheral agent of the very evil I
was assigning to another. Got to do
better than that in the future if I’m going to do any good for anyone,
including me.